Love the life you live

I signed up for this blog 4 days ago and have been thinking of how to begin. Perfectionist much? Nothing I began writing seemed good enough. So, I decided to push that all aside and just write. 

I feel like I've had a normal life. Unremarkable in many aspects and sheltered to say the least. But I wouldn't change it for the world. I've taken every experience to heart and learned from them. Every person I've met has had an impact on me one way or another, negative or positive, they have touched me and slowly molded me into the person I am today. Which brings me to now...

I'm sure 5 years ago someone asked me, "where do you see yourself in 5 years?" Now, here, like this.... is not what I would've said. 5 years ago, I was married, living in Virginia Beach, living a life of complete selfishness, sort of. I thought I was loving the life I was living. I was wrong. That was not happiness. That was called settling. There was nothing in that relationship I wanted. Nothing that made me truly happy. I was only worried and sad about the fact of being alone is why I put up with it for as long as I did. I have no other explanations as to why I stayed. The emotional damage that built up over that period of time is excruciating.

Fast forward to present day. I am engaged. I am a step-mother to 3 children. I'm living back in my hometown. I was a prekindergarten teacher but now I am a stay at home mom. I am artistic. I am emotional. I am strong. I am NOT a welcome mat. I am not emotionally abused. I am unconditionally loved. I love unconditionally. I am unfortunately at my heaviest weight I have ever been in. (Screw whoever said that being comfortable with someone means you let go of yourself. CRAP!) I am beginning to let down walls I never thought would crumble. I have a future paved out for me, which is a good thing because I love routine and consistency. I am a very different version of myself and I can only thank Lee for that. I need to start vocally thanking him for that.

I am so thankful for my life right now. Out of all that has happened to me, this is exactly where I want to be. I want to be in a loving relationship. I want to mean more than anything in the entire world to someone. I want to be a mom. I want to be someone who has an impact on other people. I want to be a positive role model. I want to inspire. I want to have inspiration. I'm happy.

Anything is possible.